Maybe it's not as bad as you think, these things often aren't. I'm sure your T has your best interests at heart.

I understand what you mean about telling T about this forum, sometimes it occurs to me that my T might see what I write - but then, when I think about it, I'd probably tell her whatever I write on here anyway, I don't think I really have any 'secrets' anymore. That said, Ts are probably too busy to play detective, find us online, and obsessively read all our posts, so I wouldn't worry too much.

Hope you do continue to post, and that everything works out for you