I haven't felt like self harm in like a month. About an hour ago, it is almost 9pm, I saw a knife on the dishwasher and it made me really think about cutting. My last appt with my pdoc she said my mood was getting better but my thoughts are psycotic. I see my pdoc tomorrow again and I am going to tell her about my thoughts of cutting. I hope my thoughts doesn't get worse or there maybe a problem. I really don't want to end up back in the hospital.