I've already posted my story of my sexual abuse. I'm not mentioning it again. I'd rather not actually because it's repressed which makes it near impossible to remember what actually happened to me. I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse.

Things have been somewhat more challenging dealing with the abuse in the autumn..which makes me think it occurred during this season. But I'm proud of how I've dealt with in..not so proud in other ways.

This semester I'm in a forensic interviewing class for children. Im in school for child advocacy and criminal justice and someday hope to work with children. I had a meeting with my advisor and my resume was just mailed out for a possible internship I may get. I'd be working at a children's hospital, working directly with children who have been sexually abused- just like myself. This is what I have always been inspired to do in my life..it's the right direction I want to head in.

I have a ? though. I'm assuming during the interview if I get one that I'll be questioned what brings me to want to do an internship there. Should I tell the truth and say that I'm inspired to help children who have been sexually abused because I have gone through the same victimization? Half of me really wants to say that because that is my main inspiration but the other half of me doesn't want to say that because I don't want them to think that I am not capable of doing that occupation because I may get too emotional or whatever other assumptions could be made by that. Obviously, I know that individuals who have been sexually abused have the same ability to do a job just as any other person. I don't get emotional anymore. Somedays I have my nights. But my work and personal life are separate. I just need some good advice concerning that.

I thought about asking my forensics professor. She's a very sweet lady. And I feel she may know the answer. I just want to get some other feedback elsewhere. She also knows I'm a victim of childhood sexual abuse. I came out in a paper we had to write. Then, we met together and I told her and she told me that if any of the papers are difficult to write because of the topic that I can consult her to get a different topic to write about..or if a movie we're viewing is too traumatic, that I can leave the classroom so I don't have to go through it again. The thing is. I'm ok. I get teary eyed often with certain things, but I'm here..in that class..at this school for a reason..to pursue things..to accomplish things..to help others who have gone through what I've gone through. Overall..in this blog..I just wanted to say..challenges that seem impossible..often are conquered..day by day. Stay strong all. And if anyone can give me some advice that'd be much appreciated.