I am struck by your strong motivation. It sounds like you don't want to waste time or take a circuitous route. My journey has not been so direct! I would suggest talking to your therapist about her ideas for how to proceed. She knows you well and probably has some good ideas. Also, would you be able to give yourself permission to go slowly if you need to? If you try going fast and you aren't getting where you want to go, slowing it down might help. Sometimes a slower pace gets you to your goals more quickly. There have been some times when my T was cautious about where we were going because he didn't want to hurt me or see me in pain. He needed some reassurance that I wanted to keep going that day... So try to keep on the same page as your T. Let her know if it's too fast or slow and see what she says. My T is a fan of "quick" therapies like EMDR for trauma. He says there are many trauma techniques and he's settled on doing mostly EMDR because of its speed. So you can ask your T about different routes to the same goal and which might be fastest or best suited for your personality.

Interesting questions. I never thought of my T as deliberately trying to evoke my feelings. He made his office a very safe place for me to feel things and himself a very safe person to share my feelings with. So he didn't really evoke my feelings, but made expression of them possible.

Good luck!