I don't know if this is the right forum to discuss this or not, but I'm not sure where to go next to search for treatment.

I am currently seeing a T but because I work out of town and have such a crazy schedule I can usually only see her once every two or three weeks. That's not enough for me. I have only seen her one other time so I am unaware of how to contact her outside of normal sessions.

I've done some stupid things lately. I'm actually in between DXM trips right now because I don't know what to do. My coping mechanism for dealing with my depression used to be sleep every time I was going through really dark episodes. It's not working anymore and I can't sleep like I used to. Aside from that I keep having nightmares. I am ashamed that I turned to abusing DXM. I am afraid of losing my job. I hate lying to my coworkers, friends, and family members. Any advice?