Dijmart ..

Yes I do Yoga .. Sometimes it helps my fibro pain sometimes it flares it up all to hell .. Im still trying to learn how to pace myself ... Soooo hard for me to do and now dealing with finally getting treatment for bipolar and the gawd awful side effects of the medications (((

I also found out today we are losing our health insurance the end of the month .. we cant afford to pay almost 600.00 to cobra act it... my husband was hurt at work had surgerys had to get a lawyer when they refused to accommdate for his injuries so hes been out on disability since Feb .. Im flipping out because of where i go for therapy cant help me with one of there safety net programs i will have no choice to go off my meds and sleep meds everything actually and im scared to death for myself to be honest ... when i dont sleep and get no relief from pain i wind up in the psych ward for suicidal thoughts ,,

Ugh Im flipping out ,, I see my T tomorrow ... hopefully i can get some good news ..

Hubby keeps telling me to calm down and relax ,, he doesnt understand how bad things will get ...... for months he had no idea how bad i was as him and i werent talking at all.... he thought i was being lazy ... he now understands im not and i have 2 major illnesses that affect my daily life ...

well this happening will probably cause me to go off Seroquel even tho its the only thing that has actually helped .. Im so afraid of going back to that big black insane mess ...

Thanks for reading my whine/despair/rant.

Wishing you some peace <3