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Originally Posted by ThisIsMe0557
everything i do isnt good enough. i try my best to live right and make the people i love happy but i dont get that in return. instead all i get is ridiculed, even when i try to do something nice for someone. everyone constantly remind me of my past and how much of a screw up i used to be. im basically being told things like you dont love me, why did you get me that one i dnt like it, or you cant ever do wha i ask of you. i take these things as them saying im a screw up n i hear it so much i believe it. i really dnt like myself and when i try to talk to the people closest to me about it they tell me im just seeking attention and that i cant be serious and that im stupid. they say this because im an attractive girl and i know that, but everything else about myself i dont like-the way i feel the way i think. i question my capabilities about everything in my life. i dont feel like anything is worth the effort because everyone is just gonna say im wrong anyway. how do i get people to listen to how i feel and actually take me seriously? im on the edge and dont know how much more i'll be able to take.
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((((This is me)))), I don't know what your age is, but that doesn't really matter. What you are describing was my family situation. Over the years one by one because I didn't do what they wanted everyone has broken away. That still hurts because all I ever tried to do was the right thing (barrng the times I was angry though, one or two of those times I confided in one family member and he told the one I had confided in him about.
I finally realised today actually that I am on my own now. Yes I have a partner, but if we break up then I truly am on my own and that even though I've always said I wanted that, it is a scary thing. And I'm getting older now, will I die alone? things to think about. But I am better of alone and with a peaceful centre than in a group of lunatics (just my choice).
Look to your future and see what you want not what you haven't had in the past or don't have in the present; always look forward and know that everything happens for a reasom. Sending you hugs and knowing that you have an inner strength to fortify you.
Blessings,
Rhiannon
