I felt that I needed to make a public declaration of this. Today, I, Secretum, have decided that I am going to fight my depression with all the weapons I have available. I'll take my medication, and let my pdoc know that I'm not satisfied with it. I'll pursue therapy, even though I don't like the therapist I've interviewed (all other options have long wait lists). I'll exercise, though that might take all the strength I have. I will debate my negative thoughts. I will maintain hope on a verbal level until I can feel it truly on an emotional one. I'll reach out to others, and form new relationships. When I go to bed, exhausted from all of this, I won't allow my rest to exceed 8 hours. And no more indulging in 3-4 hr naps. : /

I've already started; I can't tell you how many times I had to substitute "try" with "will" in the above paragraph.

It will be hard, but I have to do it. I can't keep living like this. I can't die, as I've decided that sui is not an option. The only way out is through.

Somebody save me; I have no idea how I'm going to do all of this!