Hankster you are a pleasure to read from (cuz you make a joke most of the time); and you make a very valid point here-

I will make this short- I wrote a page and 1/4 that I deleted- I will keep it in my journal-

My Parents and 2 brothers - No (My Mother Espcially no- My father I dont think he cares, and my 2 brothers I dont care to know due to what they have done/became)

My 2 sisters and 1 brother- once in a while we do talk- my brother we talk more than my sisters due to I can't drop him cuz I know he needs help, and maybe a little encouragement will help him to get help. My 2 sisters have families and are busy with their lives which is awesome.

And Yes I do get what you are talking about not being you- we each at times feed off of one another's emotions; this sadly due to my 2 sisters and my 1 brother and I are similar in different ways for one another.
With my brother- It can take me a bit to calm down with stuff- I can rant about stuff for a week about what he is doing or what's going on with him cuz it makes me mad. Or him not being honest. I just wish he would be better, and I understand the world is hard right now, but some routes just need to be dropped.
I get extremely paranoid with my brother that I talk with, as well. which is sad, and I either need to squish that or if it is real- I need to be more distant.

But yeah Hankster- My boyfriend told me a while ago- before we were together; some times you have to let go of your family if they are hurting you more than helping you... I have learned that to be true.