ygrec thought i'd posted to u again..maybe in another forum. idk. your T will pace you as you can safely go. i feel my T is my buffer to guide me. it is still painful but yet 'no pain, no gain'. i choose like you to continue nevertheless. we are similar in age. but i have to be honest, sometimes it is very difficult for me to 'feel' without becoming overwhelmed. that's why having a T is better, imo. BTW your years of therapy-like mine-have not always been fruitful. sounds like you've found a good one. i recently became aware of stuff i have never touched before 20 yrs later in therapy. but i'm working on this as we speak. sometimes i have to step back..not long tho..so i can reenergize.