So had my session with T yesterday - there was a marked difference in me, I had been very disconnected and overwhelmed last week and had sent T a very open detailed e-mail.

However I am feeling much more powerful this week, can take on the world (almost ...) - I think T grabbed the opportunity for me to explore more helpful ways of dealing with the bad times (you know not the maladaptive ways).

So that is my task for the week to think about what the vulnerable bit of me needs.

I look at my kids and know exactly what to do, what their needs are if they are sad:- hugs, holding hands, listening, soothing words.

But I know if anyone offered me any of that when I was feeling sad, I would run a mile.

I do feel stupid, I know all this stuff in my head, I know the theory, I know what to do for other people, but I just can't do it for myself.

Can I really go back next week and say I don't know what it is I need - I just can't work it out. Arrh! It is so frustrating.