I know that my t is suggesting that I drive, even if it's only in the parking lot because she knows me well enough to know that the longer I go without driving, the harder it is going to be.
Even knowing that, I just can't do it. I can't get behind the wheel. I can't drive.

I am getting ready now to go for about a 4 mile round trip walk to the grocery store just because I don't want to drive. I would really rather just stay in bed and hide. I don't want to do this. I just want to hide.