I think I go through a lot of the " why me", because I feel like I've been through so much already in my life. I've felt like these last few years of happiness and comfort has been want I desevered. Like my happiness is a pay back for all the years of extreme abuse I faced growing up. And now I feel like MS is taking my reward from me. Guess it is really just the anger at the MS.

I have an overnight training coming up in a couple of weeks. Everyone wants to hang out and do all this stuff and I just don't have the energy to do all of that. Somehow I'm going to have to slip off and catch a nap. Last year when we had the training I got so very sick. To the point I was vomitting and running to the bathroom. I just got to hot and to tired and it made me so very very sick. Now I know what's going on with me and I know I can't push myself like that. But how do I explain to these people who are older then me, I'm tired I need my nap??

It's just hard sometimes.
Monty