This is a repost since the last thread i posted was in the wrong section.
but, i'd like some insight on how I am overly sensitive. Am i empathetic? Do i have a lack of capacity to take criticism? Do I have a weak ego? Is it something else?
okay. Examples:
When I am on an atheist forum, even though i agree with what most of the people there believe, i disagree with how they express themselves and it makes ME feel that if i ever changed my beliefs, i would not be accepted or loved anymore and would instead be treated as stupid/moronic. This makes me mentally tense up.
When I am with my christian friends, i feel as though i can't open up because they would try to convert me. So i fee uncomfortable there too. I tense up there too, thinking that they'd become very angry if i told them my beliefs.
When I am criticized, it makes me feel bad about myself, as though i am no good and if the criticism continues, i begin to cry.
people call this tough love.
When I want to do something, but know other people would disapprove I will shut down rather than state my opinion and withdraw.
What is this? This reaction? I feel like all these reactions are connected in some way?
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