No, not been drinking as i havent felt like going out and i cant drink on my own at home (luckily i associate drink with being social, unluckily i get wasted whenever i drink).
I did go to work today. but the slightest thing goes wrong and i'm in tears. I have the next 2 days off, seeing my EMDR therapist tomorrow, i am NOT doing EMDR, it makes me worse and i DO NOT want that.
while on a train, all i think is i want to be in front of the train. (i wont do it.)