Thanks everyone ~

I just got home from my seeing my Therapist .. I dont qualify for there " safety net" program because with my husbands disability payments goes over the limit .. My Therapist knew I was ready to flip out so most of our session (1 full hour) he assured me we will find a way to keep me on my medications and he even said he would continue to see me pro bono!!!! I would feel so weird if he did see me for free ...But he assured me that I am no where near being close to stable ...

Of course I cried again .. Seems every visit i wind up in tears today i was crying because this man is going to do whatever he can to keep me on meds and being able to see him .. Im having a lots of problems with hearing voices and seeing things that arent there ,,, for now I KNOW they are not real ,,,but im so scared im going to wake up one day and not be able to convince myself its not real ..He said if they continue we are going to have to see about another medication to add to stop the hallucinations ....

theres my life right now in a nutshell .

Wishing you all Peace and Love ~