Alcoholism sneaks up on you. You think like I think, I can take it or leave it but one day you will wake up and your life is in the toilet and guess what? You're an alcoholic. I've been through rehab as an outpatient and relapsed. I also have "slipped" during my sobriety as I went (and go) to AA meetings. But I keep coming back, a little stronger, a little more determined to end the madness. Obviously, something is working. And maybe I'm not as much of a drunken mess as the others. But guess what, I cannot afford to treat that as a pass to have another drink. Trust me, it doesn't end prettily. I've just gotten out of a bloody mess caused by my self-medicating, a mess that if I was asked about today, could never have predicted in my wildest dreams. And it's not over yet, I still have a long way to go, but it's one day at a time for sure, for alcoholics and for all of us really. Stay strong in your sobriety but don't take it for granted. And like the others have said, if you think you might be an alcoholic, you probably are. I wish you another sober 24.