When I was doing it....it was not just about SI....it was meant as more than that. Think even my first time dealing with anorexia I ended up pushing it more because there was less stigma if I were to die from that then an OD. Since none of the OD's were successful, they sort of turned out to be like SI.....I just wanted the pain to go away that I was feeling....but just ended up feeling worse.

Strange because growing up, I could never swallow pills....would choke on a baby asprin......then I ended up OD'ing on pills for about 5 years.....& now I can't get a pill down my throat again...like when I was a kid. I know there wasn't much thought put into my OD's....it would just be a reaction to how I was feeling at the moment....which seems similar to SI.....so I can understand how this is what you are doing.

It's definitely NOT healthy. Don't know if some of those OD's are what caused my continuous migraines I am still have that just won't go away....maybe I really screwed up something in my brain. I know the time I ended up in ICU on a ventalator, definitely wasn't a good thing. I don't know how I survived some of the OD's I did....it could have only been God that kept me from dying. One never knows how the meds are going to interact in our body...one time can be different than another & it's really not worth taking the chance if you are doing it to SI....it's more like playing Russian Roulette.