I keep trying to post messages of support here in the forum, because I want to reach out, let you know I hear you all, and don't want any of you to be hurting... But I feel like my words and sentiments just seem empty, glib, or cliche, even though I mean them from the bottom of my heart.

Truth is I just don't know what to say. I don't know how to advise any of you, because I can't stop SI-ing either. Every time I do it I say it's going to be the last time, but it never is.

I'm sorry. I hope you can all find the kind of strength I can't.