melissa............you're not wasting my time. I know you're young and I'm as old as time, but because of our illnesses, we have much in common. I can identify with many of the things you've posted, but I haven't opened up much about them before now. It's starting to get to be toooooo much, to put it mildly. If ever you want to talk to someone who has been there....don't hesitate. I understand more than many.......hugs, grey