I tried so very hard to use everything I had in me to not. I struggled with it
My T told me that I have all these amazing resources within me that I don't use when I start to falter (Really, T... I have tried!)
Today, I don't know if it was because I didn't do it in a week, or if I'm super stressed, or maybe a mixture of both...
I took a pin in class and started scraping my arm...
And then when I got home, I mangled my left arm and right leg again.

I feel like such a failure. I hate looking at this and feeling so weak... And it'd not like I could talk to people about this, because I have no idea what I'd talk about...