Moto7, You weren't rambling, just saying what you've been & are going thru.
Somehow you ended up here on PC & that's what it's for. Everyone's kind & no one judges, lots of support & info.

My heart goes out to you & all you've been thru. Be proud you've never given up on yourself or your daughter.

After you're comfortable, post in other forums that apply to you.

Take care.