when will you see T next? i know it is so hard.can you e-mail him . as you can see if you read any of my posts my T and i have bunches of breaks almost once a month.sometimes i do ok others like this month not so well.when i am doing ok and miss her or want to think about her i make her a card.i write her a letter but dont send it.i write in my journal and i came here.i also try to keep busy when i think of her i go outside for a walk go on a day trip.i depend on my hubby a lot to help me through even though he dont know it .he does well.do you have someone IRL that can help distract you?anyway i know this probibly isn't all that helpfull i dont always know what to say but i want to let you know just like you all let me know you are NOT ALONE.keep posting it helps