I think she meant all the extra 'coping strategies' I've had since starting therapy.
All the things I've worked out to do instead.
I try them. I really do... but sometimes I struggle

I don't know how to talk about what's triggering me, because I sincerely don't know how to explain any of it. I can't explain away the hurt and the anger towards myself. Half the time, I don't even know what's going on.