I went (of course) and it was a good session, I guess. Unfortunately, when I got there, a bunch of little things suddenly felt urgent and I didn't really get to talk about the big thing I wanted to talk about. I also chickened out on telling my T that I didn't want to come...I know I should have, and we should have talked about it, but I just couldn't.

We had a good discussion about the things I did bring up, but I left feeling unsettled and tense because we didn't really get to the things I wanted to. It was my own fault...my T is not a mind reader, so if I don't bring up a topic, she has no way of knowing I want to talk about it.

I decided that the only way I'm going to actually be able to talk about the things I want to talk about is if I email my T and ask her for help in not avoiding the topics. So, I just composed an email to her explaining that I need her help in this, and listing the topics (there are 3) that I keep letting myself avoid. I'll send it to her in a bit...it just needs to sit in my drafts folder until I get enough courage to hit send.