I just need advice, help or confort some sort of thing because ive been havin manic episodes (i think), i can't stop, i can't stop all those toughts, i speek really quickly and I can't stand being quiet, laid down or sit, i just have to move. I was waiting for the train and i think, could i jump to the platform? could i reach to the other side without falling, i think i could, should I. I want to stop but i don't know how, Im desesperate, i began to feel angry and huge rages became to the surface, i began to beat my self and harming myself just to came back to normal, to feel that i'm still here, that it's still me and that i'm human.