thank you all, and I think I learned that I don't have to be down, or depressed. It was simple, I played my main instrument, Clarinet, for the first time in months, and it felt good. I want to play now, but I have Chem to work on and to study, but I know that I need a good break.

Time is never on my side. It seems like I'm always against it. I need to become more focused so I can add in exercise and learning new solos for clarinet. But time management is not easy for me. But I do know that by adding both it will be the way that will help me the most, and I believe that I will slowly replace the urges with positive things around my life.

I know know what to do to help myself overcome the urges and the anxiety around everyday life. I can do this now.... Managing my time, Ill get better at that... soon.