Wow! Yup I titled it that because I am second guessing this whole therapy thing. It is just starting to seem like more trouble than it is worth. We have been working on mindfulness in an effort to help me connect with my feeling. I have no idea that Im feeling at all much less what Im feeling. Part of me likes it that way except for when I dont see the depression until its so bad I end up in the hospital. I HATE FEELINGS!!!!!!!!!!!! Why do I have to feel??? It is just scary...I dont know how to feel...or wouldnt know what to do if I had I feeling!!!

Its toooooo much...I wanna quit. But I have to see a T to see the Pdoc I am seeing....

I dont know what to do????.......