I was having therapy from my last pdoc, but she really irritated me by asking me about the same (non-relevant) things over and over - like the research methods I'm using for my graduate work, etc. I don't like repeating myself, so to me it seemed like she was "testing" my story. I don't mind that she asked every week about triggers because that was relevant, and it was also making me more conscious of observing these things. But she also seemed to expect me to take a lead somehow, for example asking about a dx when that's what I went for originally, so I assumed she'd tell me when she had it worked out. Not so much. I spent a ridiculous amount of money that I really can't afford (my hubby was actually also quite irritated about it and said I should just quit going instead of paying $300 to tell her I'm not going to see her anymore, and in hindsight I agree!) but then when I had to cut it off and asked about the dx, she said that would just be a word (which kinda gave it away, actually) but it should be a conversation. What a cop-out!

I realize that I was resisting her advice (a lot) but much of that is because she was suggesting things that I considered unacceptable, without giving me any rationale for why I should consider doing those things, like for example giving up on my career dreams for a "less stressful" position. However, I'm the kind of person who won't give up before I've tried, so that was just never going to fly with me. She never said that I'm at a higher risk for having more episodes with a high stress job. I respond well to logic and evidence, which is pretty darn obvious if you talk to me for a couple hours, so it was a complete failure to communicate on my level. She also didn't give me any parting advice except to continue taking my meds, but I still need someone to prescribe and although I asked she gave no suggestions at all. The sad thing was that she's considered a good diagnostician and pdoc. The whole experience made me think she's just in it for the money.

Eventually I quit seeing her because she was out of network, way too expensive and my insurance was reimbursing only a tiny fraction of the cost. I will start seeing a new T next week, hopefully this one will work out better.