Seems like I'm full of it (advice that is) but here's what I would do. Whether or not you're an alcoholic doesn't really matter. What matters is getting out of whatever rut you're in. Why not just look at it as an experiment? Go without booze for a while, see how you feel. After a few meetings, and hearing people talk about similar experiences, it was clear we had more in common than not. The only major difference was that my alcoholism was the result of unmanaged bi-polarism rather than something like hereditary alcoholism or dealing with a childhood trauma. But how you get there doesn't matter, there's no litmus test you have to pass, just the desire to stop drinking.

So I've been going to AA like once a week. I found a chapter near my house and go on Friday nights with a friend. If you have a few in your area, go to all of them and choose one you're most comfortable with. You might want to get to a few extra meetings to begin with. Hell, the stories you hear there may keep you coming back. They also may "trigger" you to drink so watch out for that. When you are slave to the bottle, anything can be a "trigger", a pretext to drink. Do whatever you have to do to resist those cravings. Honestly, those cravings are what convinced me that I'm addicted; they may not be there all the time but when they show up, it's sometimes all I can do to resist them. I try to keep very busy so that those thoughts have no receptive "surface" to grab onto. Inactivity is the enemy for me. Lately, I've had good success blocking them with mind techniques but when they're too powerful, it's time to get to a meeting. The most important thing for me is going even when I don't feel like it. Force yourself, it's worth it.

Hope all this helps. PM me anytime. I wish you a healthy 24.