Thank you all of you. I had a few hours sleep last night and feel a bit fragile today but all your kind comments really helped. I'm off for a night at a lovely hotel with my hubbie later and am away next week with the kids so I'm keeping busy and writing here does help - even though last night I wondered if anyone would reply - depression paranoia! Night times when you can't sleep can be so lonely but I'm so pleased I'm part of PC, it warmed my heart to see I wasn't alone.

Thank you again
Nelliecat