I understand the origin of my feelings. I am married to an abusive man.
My therapist gives me everything I dont get from my husband except
a sexual relationship. Not hard to understand the transference. Who wouldn't fall in love with someone who give me so much. Makes me actually feel good about myself. But my feelings of love are real regardless of all the psychobabble.

Yes, I would like to think he has romantic feelings for me. I know that
is wrong to wish for. I am going on my instincts. A woman knows when
a man is attracted to her. The looks, the little flirtations, how it feels
to hug him. When I told him I loved him he got quite upset saying,
"I cant bring you into my life, I wont do it" It's unethical, illegal, it would
be catastrophic" I had him quite riled up. And he is right. And my gun
toting husband would probably shoot us.

But what he doesn't come out and say, I will mention again, is that what
I am sensing from him, is normal caring for a patient that he has worked with for 4 years, for a human being, who happens to be a woman, and indicate in a tactful way that his feelings are not of a sexual nature or romantic nature. Maybe he is afraid to hurt me, but letting me feel what
I do for him should be addressed. He should let me know he is not interested....and that I'm just a patient.