We always have to move toward what we want or we can slide toward places we may not want. If you want to be able to go out with friends; you have to do that, even if it is sometimes difficult or uncomfortable.

We can't "stay" anywhere, but we can be centered (like those clown balloons you can't knock over?); if we try to stay a certain way instead of working to be centered wherever we are, we'll slip further away from center/"normal" because the current of life will still be pulling on us and we'll be concentrating on that instead of our actions in our own little Self boat.

Pull on them oars and go out with friends. I wouldn't drink while you're out; that can make Paxil's side effects worse http://www.paxiloral.com/paxilandalcohol.html and make your "good time" even harder to achieve.