I just don't know what to do. I know my mood is getting lower and lower, but I'm so afraid to reach out properly to my support ppl because my kids could get taken into care. My eldest daughter, who the state already has guardianship of but lives with me, was put into her respite care home today instead of friday so i could have a break. i was told to not feel like a failure, that it is just to help me, but I feel worse now than before. I know that severe lack of sleep is not helping- I have been avoiding going to bed til as late as possible because thats when i think about things even more, so I'm going to bed early tonight- I hope to be there within 45mins. But where do I go from here? I just feel so lost