I thank all of you who've posted here, whether on getting in touch with emotions or other aspects of "working through." I'm paying very close attention to what you have to say and to your experiences. I met with T this morning and asked her about how I should do "working through," from her perspective.

She replied that if, instead of "running away" when anxiety hits, I investigated the anxiety and peeked behind it, I would find emotions that have survived from infancy and should explore them. She said that in every case the anxiety is prompted by emotions that are no longer relevant to my adult situation. These are the leftovers of the "big bang" that took place in infancy and toddlerhood. She said that since there are no words connected with these emotions, it would take me some time and experience to be able to describe them even to my own satisfaction, but that I should not expect perfect descriptions from the beginning.

We then talked about a rather frequent pre-sleep fantasy that I use to calm myself down and dissipate anxiety before I go to sleep. She said it was an excellent example of my anger (though I feel no anger in the fantasy) and also deserved detailed and concentrated attention to find out exactly what I was angry at.

Since I'm anxious many times a day (if not all day long) I don't think I will lack opportunities to carry out her first suggestion. I'm a bit confused about what to do with the second suggestion, but we'll meet again on Monday and see what we can do. Just giving you folks an update. Thanks again! Take care!