Nobody but me knows I drink hard stuff and take more and more of my prescription pain meds and muscle relaxers each month but me. I hide it from the world because of the work I do I can lose my job. As it is now I am about to lose my job anyway due to too many days off, about to lose my marriage due to too many strange behaviors then I guess I will just lose my life at the end. Right now I have a medical problem that is allowing me to be off of work for 4-8 weeks so I am TRYING to get clean and sober on my own. I grew up with an alchoholic dad who has been doing great in AA for 25+ years now so I know a little about the program. But I cannot go and risk my colleges at work finding out about my condition or it's over. Can anybody here give me some supportive thoughts? Am I just being a fool to even try this on my own!