Two weeks ago I had a huge seizure and ended up in the hospital half dead. This is about the third time now in the past two years since my attempt. Why my husband and those nice ambulance people just don't let me die in peace (must be love) is starting to grind on the suicidal side of me! Well, now I am off work with no pay for 4-8 weeks and not sure if I have a job to go back to. I'm starting some new meds for the epilepsy that I hope will work better. I cannot drive or be left alone. I pee my pants often when I have a seizure. I am feeling realllllllly down. I could use a hug or two. Anybody know of any good epilepsy support groups online? HELP PLEASE