As I'm talking to my boyfriend. Memories or flashbacks keep coming to me as I keep talking about my parents. I wish I could forget about this and start being positive. I can remember my dad hitting me really hard on my head just because I said I shouldn't be born or something. I wish these daggers of verbal abuse would be gone. I want to be positive. I don't want to end up like my mum. My dad isn't bad but in the past he has hit me. Does anyone have any idea how I can start forgetting about my past and start a fresh? I wish I could move with boyfriend and he makes me happy. Those comments have hurt me. I know I don't deserve abuse. I deserve to be happy. My boyfriend and people on here are to prove that I am loved and I deserve happiness. I'm on here to talk about my problems and to become more positive. I am a happy, loving, caring and friendly person. That is true I think? I wish people wouldn't blame their problems on their children. It will affect the children and then it carries on. It's like a vicious circle? The past is the past. What has been done is over. My targets for the present and future is to become positive and to get mentally well again :-) I am healing. Thanks to people like psych central and my boyfriend. I am happy and well Thank you for reading. I need to vent so I can release my negative emotions.