I fight inner battles every day, I work through it.... sometimes I am not aware of a problem but when I am ... and when I understand it ... then I can let it go. I have only recently understood my mother's behaviour - don't know how - it sure took long enough... it no longer has the charge it used to have, which is why it was cast aside, naturally and without effort. But the other battles - must be won too.

Working through it - the work is hard and I do not belittle it in any way. But sometimes, speaking as a person with an occasionally hyperactive mind - it is best just to let it go.

There is always work to do.... inner work.... or simply cleaning my stuff out and throwing away old clothes. Sometimes it is nice to just watch whodunnits and listen to music and do nothing at all

One week to go... I am terrified, have had IBS symptoms all day, and I never suffered from that before. Step one of leaving my miserable marriage.