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Originally Posted by chalmette70043
But i will limit myself to 6-8 beers a day. I have to stop an hour before i take my meds or i get sick. Temptation is a weak spot for me. If i go to a neighbors house and they offer me a beer, i'll take it. The temptation is so strong.
I guess i am an alcoholic. But i feel like i can handle it without rehab or AA. I've gone almost two weeks without drinking except for that one day. did you feel the urge to drink and just white knockled it the other 13 days? i did a lot of what they call "controlled" drinking. in my case i wasn't controlling it, it was controlling me.
I guess i do need help. But i'd rather find it here.
chalmette, tho we can encourage you here, the only way to recover from alcohol abuse/alcoholism is to abstain. admitting we have a problem is the first step. accepting we need to fix it is the next. i can't say u're an alcoholic. only you can. but if you drink to gain a feeling or get rid of a feeling they tell us we have a prob.
I don't know what to expect in rehab and it scares the **** out of me. rehab has multiple purposes. education about alcoholism and learning how to live without a drink are two. have you considered asking your T more about rehab? it may seem less scary to you if u discuss this. And AA is just so intimate here with only 4 other people sitting around the table. I've been told thats the best meeting to go to, with just a few people there. But i'd feel safer going with more people.
i had given you a link when u first posted this thread re all mtgs. in your area. most AA mtgs. are considerably larger than the one u mentioned. i'm sure u can locate quite a few others in your area. all mtgs. are good btw. just go and listen. see if you can identify with others there.
I will probably lie to my T and tell her i went to an AA meeeting. But i know she'll catch on soon. So i'm gonna end up having to go. She mentioned checking up on me that i am going. I don't know how she can do that, but i bet sh'ed find a way.
I'll look to you guys here at pc for help and support right now. See if i can do it this way.
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i know that deciding we have a problem is scary. before i stopped drinking alcohol had become my "best friend" so to speak. i drank when i was happy, drank when i was sad, dog died, dog lived, rained, didn't rain, etc. for those of us who have experienced having a drinking problem, "one is too many and a thousand are not enough."
here's a helpful quiz for you/it's short... http://alcoholism.about.com/od/problem/a/blquiz1.htm
i wish you well.
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