Hi Madisgram.

I did have the urge and still do. But its getting less. Except for Sundays. I'm already thinking about going to the corner and getting some beer. But i'm gonna fight it and try to just stick with my water.

Yeah, i drink to get a good feeling. And i drink to get rid of bad feelings.

I asked my T a few things about rehab and it scares me more. I don't want to be locked up for 30 days. It's in the middle of Louisiana and I don't want to be that far from home.

I called Family Services and the mental health clinic and neither one offers meetings. I called the community center and they just never answer the phone. I even drove over there one evening and it was closed. I already knew about the one at the church, being i went there 4 years ago. So thats where i'd have to go. There are lots of meetings in New Orleans. But my truck won't make it and i don't have a ride.

I did the quiz and got 15 out of 20. Kinda proves something to myself.