I sound like your husband. But i will limit myself to 6-8 beers a day. I have to stop an hour before i take my meds or i get sick. Temptation is a weak spot for me. If i go to a neighbors house and they offer me a beer, i'll take it. The temptation is so strong.

I guess i am an alcoholic. But i feel like i can handle it without rehab or AA. I've gone almost two weeks without drinking except for that one day. I know if i put my heart into it i could stop forever.

I guess i do need help. But i'd rather find it here. I don't know what to expect in rehab and it scares the **** out of me. And AA is just so intimate here with only 4 other people sitting around the table. I've been told thats the best meeting to go to, with just a few people there. But i'd feel safer going with more people.

I will probably lie to my T and tell her i went to an AA meeeting. But i know she'll catch on soon. So i'm gonna end up having to go. She mentioned checking up on me that i am going. I don't know how she can do that, but i bet sh'ed find a way.

I'll look to you guys here at pc for help and support right now. See if i can do it this way.