I hate Bipolar 1. It has destroyed my life. There is no place for me to go but down. Unlike everyone else here on PC, I have no light at the end of the tunnel. I don't even have a tunnel. Well meaning people would say "you've been there before, you'll come out of it again." In my case that's not true either. Bipolar 1, and anything else that's going on with it, has destroyed my body and now it's taking my mind. No, I don't want to be Bipolar. I would rather have Alzheimers or pancreatic cancer.