So today was a pretty difficult day. I'm just starting treatment, so I'm still on edge constantly and haven't yet developed my coping skills. After my co-worker throws me under the bus to make her look like a super star employee, I was called into the big bad bosses office. His main question was "why are you making so many mistakes?". I found this a very difficult question to answer honestly. Since I am not comfortable trusting anyone at work with any information about my depression, I absolutely could not explain that I have been having a really hard time focusing and remembering even the little things and as a result my work performance has suffered because of my condition. I was able to spin my defense well enough to not tip off to anything being broken in me, but it left me exhausted, as pretending to be okay has recently. My job an extremely unhealthy, unsupportive, stressful hell.

How do you all handle balancing work and depression? How do you explain failing job performance without giving yourself away? Everyday I want to run out of the door and quit, but health insurance is kinda important for me right now....