<font color=green>Dalila,
During my whole first year of therapy I was frightened to death that my T was going to leave me like the other too did. I would ask him right out "are you making any plans to go" and he always said "No, I like it here because I don't have to worry about scheduling or billing or anything". He is rather lazy that way. During the second year, when I was really starting to feel better I got scared that he would make be go because I didn't need him anymore. I told him this and he reassured me that I can see him even when I am not sick. It will still cost me but I am more then welcome to sit in his office and talk to him all I want about how fine I am. Now I am scared to death that I won't be able to see him because of finances and once again he has told me that it doesn't matter he and I can work things out, as long as I need to see him I can. I wonder what it will be next, what abandonment senerio I will come up with in relation to my Therapist.

The Painting project turned out awesome. Day before yesterday we painted her walls soft sage green. Today we finished the stripes on the walls. They are six inches wide and a soft coral red color. I am going to run them up the ceiling, her ceilings are sloped so the ceiling strips will connect with the wall stripes. It is going to look so cool. I started on the trim, which is a darker coral in semi-gloss (instead of the flat paint I put on the walls) When that dries we are going to paint over it with a dark blue so it will give it a tile trim look.

<font color=blue>Heather,
Yes I am totally wiped out. I should sleep well tonight...or have vicious nightmares...should I take some sleeping pills?

I drink diet pop. I like colas with lemon or vanilla in them but like dr pepper the best. Unfortunately dr pepper tends to upset my stomach if I drink it in quantity like I do when I am painting. My diet pop habit started when I got into weight watchers. I never drank it before then. Now regular pop tastes too syruppy. I drink lots of water but when the tunes are up and the brush is in my hand it has to be pop.
Carrie