Thank you for the words of support, and encouragement , and boy do I need them, I worked myself into a frenzy.
I am really scared to give up my ed and be left with a huge gaping hole. Its become such a part of me over the years, kind of like my left arm. It just feels really scary. I am scared to go into therapy and pull off the blankets and see what's hiding under there, this is going to be really hard and I know it.
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Originally Posted by BNLsMOM
I am about to start volunteering at a cat shelter/adoption center. I go in Monday for training. I know how you feel about being scared to go to work, I feel the same way and I only will be working for two hours on Mondays.
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I remembered that BNLsMOM. I hope that works out for you *crossed fingers* for a great second trip. It is scary isn't it, I've been on disability for 5 years and out of work for 8, feeling very rusty, and unsure.
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Originally Posted by Innerzone
Lots of ssssssssss and strengthening thoughts to you, Anika!
Try not to think on it all at once, or better yet, try to immerse yourself in something completely unrelated. Fun, even better. My head whirls too (I call it "dominoes in a blender"), so I know it can be hard, but it really does help if you can manage to do it. Even in short bits. |
Innersone, I like that, perfect analogy, I will really try to put it away untill Wednesday, or at least keep it folded.
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Originally Posted by dijmart
Good luck on Mon. AND Wed.
Try not to worry too much it won't do you any good. Try to stay in the "present" moment.... I know it's harder said then done, I'm trying to remind myself also.
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Dij, I am really sorry for your loss, and I know you are headed back to work, that's going to be hard
Thanks for sharing about your struggle with an ed and overcoming it, that gives hope.
Also thanks for reminding to me to be present, perfect time to put it into practice, I have been trying harder.