Why are you trying to recover? Sounds like your life is similar whether drunk/high or not? Or, why do you spend money to get drunk/high?

I posit that something changes for you; maybe some actions are easier that are best not easy (unprotected sex/not thinking through the personal or emotional ramifications for you or the other person; not keeping some appointments/promises made to others or yourself; driving or doing other "dangerous" things under the influence and putting your life and others in danger) or time and money is wasted that could be applied to more "worthwhile" pursuits?