Hey, well I decided to put this in this section because its about my anxiety, but its the situation I need some support for;

Tomorrow I am visiting my friend (well...an old friend that I ended friendship with a long time ago) in prison because I have heard his really having a tough time, so I wrote to him and asked for a visiting order, which he sent. so Im off to see him tomorrow.

but the prison his in, is where I used to be employed, the place that fired me for catching me sitting down, despite the fact that I have a disability that requires me to have a place to sit at all times, it was also the place that had me sent onto another job where I had a complete meltdown, its also the place where I had an accident that sent me to hospital.

not only will I be returning, have my old co-workers looking at me and being searched like I used to search others, but the room where visits take place is the exact same room that I had the accident in.

im so anxious, its something I need to do though, my friend is not in a good place, and despite our friendship ending a long time ago...I still care.

I cant take my usual meds to calm me before the visit, I dont know what to do....any advice?