I'm sorry you are worrying.

I remember that your T sat with you and allowed and accepted your silence, then reassured you that of course she wants to see you on Monday.

Sometimes the best thing to help the session following a hard session, when it happens with me, is to begin by thanking T for her reassurance or for whatever she did the previous session that I liked, or a phone call or email between sessions. I feel relieved myself and it helps open things up, things that are fresh on my mind even if I don't realize it.

Don't let this bump in the road be anything more than temporary. You'll get through this and back to talking more like you were. Be open to it. She wants you there, she wants to get to know you so she can be helpful. She is not interested in forcing you to do something you don't want to do, or controlling you, or taking over, or punishing you. She is looking forward to seeing you again and helping you feel safe again.