Hi All,

I can't believe it, but I got triggered big time Monday at my 25-min. medication monitoring session. This is a once every three months or so.

I know this was not intentional on p-doc's part. Let's face it all kind of miscommunication can occur in a 25-min. session.

I had a very controlling and rigid mother. I can't believe my p-doc's suggestion about getting up at the same time everyday (perfectly logical mind you) earlier in the day, hit my mother button. My mother has been dead nine years now, and I am still struggling to become my own person. I have been making great strides in this area, and have been feeling more confident and content recently than in my whole life.

My mother was always making suggestions.

In the interest of not making this post hugely long, I am trying to summarize some. I came in with my good news about doing well in my new teaching career, and being offered additional classes. My father (I have a father button too) barely batted an eye when I used to come home with report cards with almost or all A's on them. He didn't think I should go to college, because I was a girl. My brother was a Cornell and Harvard graduate.

It sounded like p-doc said I was sleeping too much, when in reality, I've been sleeping about eight hours a day. This was related to some miscommunication.

The bottom line is I felt like I was attacked, when in fact I know he didn't mean it that way.

I tried getting up earlier yesterday, but was simply exhausted. Was too tired to get my work done, so I went back to bed. Anyway -- long story short, now I feel like my whole rhythm of life is OFF.

I was happy as a clam on Monday, and now I'm like a grumpy bear who would like to bite someone's head off. Promise to not bite anyone who responds.

EJ